Who’s In Control

I am trying to regain control of my life. One day at a time. Some days I find my walk on the path… 1 step forward, 2 steps back.

Found this recently. I wrote it in a January 1, 1999 journal. (We didn’t call it blog then)

Psalm 1:6 (NLT)
For the Lord watches over the path of the godly.

He also provides assurance for following Him. God loves His creations, He takes care of His things. But, we have to be godly.

What is a godly person? Is it a “do not” person or a “do” person? A godly person delights in doing everything the Lord wants, day and night they think about His love. I want to be a godly person.

Fast forward 18 years…I know I’ve yelled at God a lot over those years. But I have also relied a lot for His guidance.

Psalm 46:10 (NLT)
“Be still, and know that I am God!
    I will be honored by every nation.
    I will be honored throughout the world.”

You know what? It’s not about regaining control… it’s about letting loose and letting God watch over my path. Doing everything I can to be a godly person. Time to start my hike.

How do I see me.

“It’s always fascinating how people see us versus how we see ourselves.” Not my words, my friend’s words. I’d never thought about it that way. Important to hang around wise/smart people.


How do you see me? How do I see me? How do you see you? How do I (others) see you? How does God want us to be seen? (Sorry so deep…)

When I show up at a meeting, (and I do a lot). Am I an “ugg” or engaged. I realized recently I can be an “ugg”. So. From now on before going into the meeting I will stop and ask God to not let me be an “ugg” but an encouragement. That’s how I want to be seen.

1 Corinthians 11:1
Be imitators of me, as I am of Christ.

Thanks friend.

Listen… and hear.

My wife often told me I had to, “make a difference… because you have the opportunity not a lot of people have”. Those words are ringing in my ears, LOUDLY. Those that knew her, knew her wisdom. She was my (everyone’s) greatest supporter. I often thought she should have been mayor and I could have been best man. I hesitated to run for Supervisor, until she said “do it”. I pledge, “I will make a difference for the people I serve, because I have the opportunity”. Dear God, here I am. You know what, this begs the question, “where are you?” Ready to make a difference, because you can?

Appreciate a friend… You might be entertaining an angel unaware…

My wife had quite a collection of angels. Never thought much about it until yesterday. Starting to go thru the house.

Angels. (I know they trumpeted in the birth of Christ, “Angels we have heard on high”) I came across Hebrews 13. St. Paul talking about that we have angels helping us, around us, angels that we are unaware of.

Always loved the tv show, “Touched By An Angel”. Made me think.

Hebrews 13:2 Living Bible (TLB)
2 Don’t forget to be kind to strangers, for some who have done this have entertained angels without realizing it!

I’m sure my wife entertained a lot of angels, and she knew it. That’s who she was.

Psalm 91:11-13 Living Bible (TLB)
11 For he orders his angels to protect you wherever you go. 12 They will steady you with their hands to keep you from stumbling against the rocks on the trail. 13 You can safely meet a lion or step on poisonous snakes, yes, even trample them beneath your feet!

Not sure about the lions and snakes. Anyway. A lot to process. And it all started with beginning to go thru my wife’s things. And oh, if you’re an angel, please identify yourself. And thank you God.

New shoes.

Who do I want to be now that I have a chance to put on a new pair of shoes. And my friend told me those new shoes can take me new places. It’s no longer about what I want, it is about what those around me need. I’ve got everything I need. My new marching orders…

Philippians 2:4The Message (MSG)
2 1-4 If you’ve gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don’t push your way to the front; don’t sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don’t be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.

How can I help you.


On my knees in prayer.

I did a little personalizing (with a little help from my friend)…

Ephesians 3:14-21 Living Bible (TLB)
When I realized the wisdom and scope of His plan, I fell down on my knees and prayed to the Father of all the great family of God—some of them already in heaven and some down here on earth, that out of his glorious, unlimited resources He will give me the mighty inner strengthening of His Holy Spirit. And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in my heart, living within me as I trust in Him. May my roots go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love; and may I be able to feel and understand, as all God’s children should, how long, how wide, how deep, and how high His love really is; and to experience this love for myself, though it is so great that I will never see the end of it or fully know or understand it. And so at last I will be filled up with God himself.

Tony the Tiger

Seems like along time ago, when someone would ask me, “how are you doing, I would quickly answer great!” (like Tony the tiger) Because a positive response helps influence the day of another person. (Dale Carnegie) Slowly my “great” response became, “fine”, became “good”, became “OK”, became silence. This week, with some help, I realized I have a choice, stay “silent” or look for OK, better, good, fine, great, and maybe even “excellent”. I’m moving forward.

In my quiet time yesterday… (Jesus speaking)
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.” Matthew 6:34 The Message (MSG)

Test me. And oh yah, and my new battle cry… “God Rules”.

Where are you God?

Friday marked 3 months since my wife died. After 37 years, needless to say, nothing will ever be the same. But for now I have kept everything the same. If you walked into the house, you would never know she was gone. I did the blame game. And God was at the top of my list. I prayed every day for healing. Many times I yelled, “where are you God?” I recently got back to the fellowship of church. I think I’m hearing God’s voice again. I got an Apple Watch and every once in a while it tells me to breath… I have substituted PRAY. I know I need to develop a two way conversation. My word for the day…

I know how to get along and live humbly (in difficult times), and I also know how to enjoy abundance and live in prosperity. In any and every circumstance I have learned the secret (of facing life), whether well-fed or going hungry, whether having an abundance or being in need. I can do all things (which He has called me to do) through Him who strengthens and empowers me (to fulfill His purpose—I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency; I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him who infuses me with inner strength and confident peace). Nevertheless, it was right of you to share (with me) in my difficulties.

The writings of Paul, Philippians 4:12-14 Amplified Bible (AMP)

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Men’s fellowship

Psalm 103:1-2 New Living Translation (NLT)
A psalm of David.

Let all that I am praise the Lord;
    with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name.
Let all that I am praise the Lord;
    may I never forget the good things he does for me.

I got up at 5 o’clock last Friday morning. Yeh, AM. Decided to check out the Men’s Bible Study at Hope/Ankeny at 6:15. It was still dark when I left, next thing you know the leaves will be turning. Fellowship is something God says we all need. Coffee is the common denominator. After a piece of Casey’s breakfast pizza and coffee, we talked about what Martin Luther nailed to the door. 95 things. I’ve tried to read them… Bottom line to me was, “how do the people in my life know what I stand on? ”

Psalm 13 Living Bible (TLB)
How long will you forget me, Lord? Forever? How long will you look the other way when I am in need?

Thanks guys for today. What did I learn. Fellowship is important. (Casey’s Breakfast pizza is the best.)

God I heard your voice. And I know it is important to listen, but more important to hear. Stand up straight. God Rules! I’ll be back. Ready for a name tag.